Wednesday Weigh-In

I know last week was a weird fluke....

Loss: -4.2
Total loss: -38.4
Feeling: Cautious.

The big 10K is this weekend! Nervous! I really want to hit 40 pounds this week. I took the Magic Tracker from my ww meeting this week. We'll see what happens....

Book recommendation

Patricia J. DeLois wrote a book called Bufflehead Sisters that I just finished reading. It was a great read! I found it lying on the table in the teacher's lounge (thanks, Katie!) and snatched it up. I have had Barbara Kingsolvers' The Lacuna on my nightstand for a year now, and I have been avoiding it. So every little easy read I can grab up I take advantage. This was a great grab. Once I started, I was dying to finish this book, and even though it was pretty predictable, I enjoyed it very much. The two main characters, Janet and Sophie, are BFF's and Sophie is like a car accident - I didn't want to know what she was going to do next, but I couldn't help looking. Check it out here.

Martha, I'll bring it to Paris for you.

"Boppee Boppee" = "Bouncy Bouncy"!!

It’s almost April, which means Spring Break is coming soon. This also means that teachers all around are getting that much-needed boost to finish the school year strong. After Spring Break, summer is in sight, so teachers are more motivated and they actually start looking forward the changes they are going to make for the next school year. It’s the same every year. The slump begins in February and continues through March. I start looking at the job openings on Craigslist and Monster and make grand plans to change careers and make a difference in the world. Of course I am qualified to lead the ACLU! Yes I am prepared to work 80 hours a week counseling teen mothers! I can definitely become a foster parent to Haitian orphans while sewing reusable shopping bags out of recycled Deer Park water bottles and still maintain my weight loss and FEED MY FAMILY! YES I CAN.

This year has been no different. For the past few months I’ve been checking ads, considering how to beef up my resume so I actually sound qualified for something other than teaching music, house hunting for more space for my kids and my business and my dogs and my 15 foster children, and trying to decide which masters degree to get next!

Then I wake up one day (yesterday) and have one of my favorite phrases running through my head: You get what you get and you don’t pitch a fit. And that’s my life. And that’s not bad. My life is great. My kids are wonderful and I want to be with them all the time. I never want them to leave me. (I might be the Mom that goes to college with them.) But every once in a while it’s OK to feel a little sad about it, right? Last night I was feeling so sad because I will never have another baby. I mean, I CAN have another baby, but we are done with the three lovelies we have. And I will never get to snuggle a fresh, warm newborn and smell her skin and stare into her eyes and breastfeed her and buy sweet clothes and carry her around in that carseat carrier thing. Ever again! It is the end of something and that is very sad. With Charlotte almost 2 years I feel a little empty about not having any more babies.

(Is this a normal feeling? Do other women feel this way?)

So, while I weather my annual end-of-winter-teaching-funk and my end-of-birthing-babies-depression, I leave you with this video of Charlotte at the park. I call it “Gaga and Papa Should Totally Buy Me this Toy.”

Wednesday Weigh-In IDON'TWANNATALKABOUTIT

Loss: +3.4
Total loss: -34.4
Feeling: FUCKING PISSED.

That is all.

thursday weigh-in

Loss: -0.8
Total loss: -38
Feeling: Resolved

Home with sick boy almost all week makes me nibble all the treats all around the house. Cookie cake? Sure, why not? Nilla Wafers? Ok! All the food I made for Henry to make him feel better that he didn't end up eating? Delicious!

Tonight I am eating a sauteed sweet potato and black beans with Charlotte and we both love it! The boys are eating leftover grilled cheese and lucky for me, Owen is eating all of Henry's extras. Back to school tomorrow, I hope. He's had a reaction to the amoxicillin, but his fever hasn't gone above 99.5 today, so we're gonna try it. He's pretty weak and sore, so I hope he takes it easy.

Because of all the sickness and busy-ness, I forgot about St. Patrick's Day. Dumb. My kids were the only ones not wearing green at school today. BOO to me.

Round 2

Henry caught the bug and is enjoying some much needed snuggle time at home. Here he is at the doctor's office with a 103 fever and a popsicle. After the doctor he fell fast asleep on the couch looking pitiful. Poor baby's fever got up to about 103.5 last night but this morning was around 101.9. He's moaning and groaning but did tell me he was feeling good enough to go out and buy Daddy's cookie cake later today. Happy Birthday, Todd!!! 

Cuties (and weigh-in)

Wednesday Weigh-In (a  little late!)

Loss: -1.2

Total Loss: -37.2

Feeling: OK. I got rid of almost my 1.6 weight gain last week, so I am back on track. I am so close to hitting the 40 pound mark, I can taste it.

Here is Owen drinking a milkshake while waiting for his Dr. appointment. He had the flu last week, poor guy. He looks so sick, right? Ha ha.

Here are the boys goofing around in the kitchen and Charlotte wearing a sweater made by our friend JK

Wednesday Weigh-In Whoops

Loss this week: +1.6
Total loss: -36
Feeling: Blah. I had a meeting out of my building today, ate a bagel for breakfast (oof), a big panini for lunch (double oof), 3 cups of coffee, 1 diet coke, and ZERO water. Plus, no exercise in 3 days. So, I expected a gain. Next week I will lose it.